Birthdays are good for you. Statistics show that the people who have the most live the longest. ~ Larry Lorenzoni

What a wonderful day today is!!!!

 

My second nephew was born at 06h40 this morning, weighing 3.6kgs (and he is still nameless, LOL).  Baby and Ronel are both doing very well and my brother is naturally over the moon.  I am an aunty for a second time – YAY!!!  I will be going to see the baby tonight, I am so excited.

 

It’s Nelson Mandela’s birthday today as well – for those of you that have no idea what is happening in the world. LOL.

 

And just to make the day complete – IT’S FRIDAY!!!!!!

 

Have a great weekend.

 

xxxx

 

Love,

Jaxie

Reflections

A couple of weeks ago I read my blogs that I had posted this time last year.  Sjoe, I was not a fanTy person and I sure as hell knew how to feel sorry for myself.  I must have been a real pain in the ass to anybody around me.

 

It is truly amazing how much and how little things change in a year.  I would like to think that I am better person now than what I was this time last year.  Being stuck in a middle of an ugly divorce situation; constant fighting with the ex-husband; constant longing for Paul; constant hurting; constant happiness; constant conflicts of all emotions.  Trying to be proper and to have a brave face all day long is not easy.  I failed at that task more than I succeeded.  Divorce is not something I EVER want to experience again. I don’t want to be hurt that deeply and I really never ever want to hurt my best friend and husband like that … not ever. 

 

For anybody who has experienced divorce, you will know what it’s like; there are no words to describe your hurt, disappoint, loneliness and just general fuckwittish behaviour.  That line between love and hate is extremely fine and sometimes invisible, BUT once you get through the crap and nonsense and just get on with it, I really do believe that you learn many lessons and you come out of the divorce being a better person.   I am not 100% convinced that all the wounds and scars will ever heal completely BUT I now know exactly what I want and what I don’t want out of relationship.  Not all of it is realistic but most of it is achievable. 

 

I am happy, I am content, I still have all sorts of day to day stress and drama, but I am married to my soul mate; he completes me and we are perfect for each other.  That is all that matters when I close my eyes at the end of a day.  Paul is my life, without him I would not be who I am at this very moment.  I am the luckiest girl.

 

xxx

Jaxie

These boots were made for walking …

Tristan is growing up… yesterday he asked me if he can start walking home from school instead of going to aftercare. 

 

I would like to think that I am not an overly protective parent, so I have agreed to let him walk home and will monitor how things go during the term.  If he turns into a delinquent (which he tends to do every now and then), then back to aftercare he will go.

 

In case you are wondering why I have not let him walk home before, it really doesn’t have much to do with the fact that he is too young etc.  We have only recently moved house (AGAIN) and we are now living about two blocks away from the school.

 

Sooooo, on Monday Tristan will walk home AND enjoy it. LOL.

 

Other news from our world:

 

• My sister in law, Ronel, will be having a baby boy on Friday morning. I am extremely excited and will go and visit on Friday night.
• We are going to Durban this weekend (leaving early hours on Saturday morning and coming back on Sunday).
• My children are driving me insane at the moment – I don’t want to talk about it.  This too shall pass.
• Tristan is going on school tour in two weeks time. I have no idea why the school would want to take kids away to the Vaal River in the middle of winter. Good luck to them with that.

 

Have a great week.

 

xxx

Jaxie